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When the Doctor woke, he was prepared to feel stiff and uncomfortable. Usually, when reaching that point of exhaustion, he usually found himself on the floor or on the console, in some sort of an awkward position that left him sore for the next day. This morning, however, he was out of his clothes and stretched out on his bed, under the covers with a heating blanket.
A breathing heating blanket.
He raised an eyebrow and looked to where Jack had an arm around him as he slept. The previous day came rushing back. Pearl Harbor, the goodbyes, the return of Gallifrey, being captured by the Shadow Proclamation, and finally nearly killing Jack. They came so very close. Too close.
Without really thinking about it, the Doctor found himself wrapping an arm around Jack's shoulder. Jack, who was ready and willing to die the previous day. And the Doctor was willing to give him that. He had been willing to give him that. Not anmymore.
Where could they go, now?
Onwards, of course. It was the only way they could go.
The TARDIS wasn't moving anymore, and the Doctor slowly extracted himself from Jack's embrace. He grabbed his trousers and shirt and threw them on quickly, heading towards the console, hopefully before Jack woke.
When the Doctor woke, he was prepared to feel stiff and uncomfortable. Usually, when reaching that point of exhaustion, he usually found himself on the floor or on the console, in some sort of an awkward position that left him sore for the next day. This morning, however, he was out of his clothes and stretched out on his bed, under the covers with a heating blanket.
A breathing heating blanket.
He raised an eyebrow and looked to where Jack had an arm around him as he slept. The previous day came rushing back. Pearl Harbor, the goodbyes, the return of Gallifrey, being captured by the Shadow Proclamation, and finally nearly killing Jack. They came so very close. Too close.
Without really thinking about it, the Doctor found himself wrapping an arm around Jack's shoulder. Jack, who was ready and willing to die the previous day. And the Doctor was willing to give him that. He had been willing to give him that. Not anmymore.
Where could they go, now?
Onwards, of course. It was the only way they could go.
The TARDIS wasn't moving anymore, and the Doctor slowly extracted himself from Jack's embrace. He grabbed his trousers and shirt and threw them on quickly, heading towards the console, hopefully before Jack woke.
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He let out a brief laugh and whispered again, "Oh but you do," he said, utterly confident of the fact.
"But fine," he said, playing along, "I could stop, if you like." And so he did, or at least made a fine show of it, stepping back slightly, space between them again, using the air as a tool.
And then he just smirked at him, as though letting him know he was enjoying this, the back and forth, and enjoying more still since he joined in.
And yes, the question on his lips was an almost worrying one to make, but Jack was convinced they were far enough ahead in this game for the Doctor to have enough confidence and enough focus to say. "So if you don't want me to kiss you," he said, still smirking, "what do you want me to do."
And a pause.
"To you."
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"Nothing," the Doctor said, firmly. "I don't want you to do anything."
He couldn't stop himself from smirking. "Because, you see---" he took a step towards Jack. "---you're the control. The variable affects the control."
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But then the Doctor smirked, and that worry faded. If it had shown on Jack's face, it had only been for a moment, and then that was replaced by realisation and a grin along with it.
"Oh I see," he said, turning his head to watch him approach.
"Well in that case. What do you want to do to me?"
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He cupped Jack's face and kissed his mouth. He had intended to make it slow and pointedly scientific, but he found himself kissing him firmly, deeply. After all, what were intentions if desires were elsewhere?
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And he loved it too when the Doctor kissed him.
There was no game in that, and Jack could tell, and so there was no game in the way he responded. He didn't hold back to tease or draw things out. Because he had urges of his own, he had wants and desires, and right now they were all in him. And so he kissed him back putting his all into it, and admittedly, yes, perhaps showing off just a little.
At the same time, he touched a hand to the Doctor's chest, flat against the wet shirt, the dampness making the shape of his body beneath feel all the more apparent. And then those fingers shifted to hook around where the buttons held the fabric down, it spoke of intention more than action. He was quite content to kiss him.
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He broke the kiss and pressed his mouth to Jack's jaw. He could taste the water from the ocean, along with some sweat, and some of Jack's pheromone. If he were scientifically minded (which, as a matter of fact, he was), he might go so far as to try to determine the pH in Jack's body from the taste.
Of course, he couldn't get too caught up in the details. Thoroughness was, after all, an important part of any experiment.
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The fingers that touched at the Doctor's shirt twisted a little more then, pulled in such a way that moved the fabric free of the buttons, a way too that looked almost accidental. It wasn't, of course.
"So," he said as he took in a deep breath, "Mr. Variable, I do hope you intend to provide a full analysis."
And then beneath that? A little more truth shone through on a shaky breath of his own, "Oh I want you."
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He took in a sharp breath at Jack's words. For all his false ego, sometimes it just felt good to be wanted. And he wanted Jack, too. Pretty much far more than he'd wanted anything in a very long while.
"Now, be cooperative," he said, his voice teasing.
He lacked the finesse Jack had at undoing clothing, so he moved a little more slowly, moving to slide one of Jack's braces down, and then the other. A Time Lord was patient, and the Doctor could be, too.
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His fingertips tingled and he wondered if he wasn't just imagining all of this. Wondered if he'd blink and it'd be gone. To want and to crave something so much and then to have it, it was a delirious feeling. Jack of course wanted more than merely the sexual though he couldn't pretend that wasn't what took over his mind right now, but the rest was there, surrounding it, and it would come. He was confident of that.
"Yes, Sir," he replied, twisting his smile to a smirk. "I intend to be fully compliant."
He shifted to help the Doctor, while not making a conscious move to take the job from him. A shift of shoulder here and arm there, and the delicacy and delay of it all just made that tingle all the stronger. The Doctor was good at this too, he wondered if he knew.
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"You wear more layers than I do," the Doctor commented, tracing his forefinger along the white undershirt below Jack's blue shirt. "And that's saying a good bit, actually. Never could figure out how many shirts worked under a suit. And I've been trying for a while."
He slid his finger down Jack's sternum slowly, as though making a careful point, but mostly to feel the warmth of his companion against his skin.
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His eyes flicked down again to watch the Doctor work on each button. He almost wanted to appraise his skill at it, because that was what it was in Jack's eyes, skilled.
"I do," he agreed. "But I look good."
Beat.
"And so do you."
He breathed an almost shaky breath as the Doctor moved his finger, and again his eyes were on it. "I should be careful," he said teasingly, "you'll be picking up tricks from me soon."
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That was more honesty than the Doctor had managed in a while. He gave Jack a small smile to go with that confession, and then moved to slip the blue shirt over his shoulders. One layer at a time. It was how the Doctor worked, his many shirt layers beneath his coat, and Jack was the same way.
One step at a time. He focused on not thinking too far ahead, not fretting. It was easier with Jack, who flirted and focused and kept the Doctor's mind from straying.
He leaned down and pressed another kiss to Jack's mouth, this one slow and sweet. A variation on the variable.
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"If only I'd realised that earlier, eh?" he said, his own little honesty there. He could just be himself. And that was just what he needed. Just what he wanted. That was good.
He shifted his shoulders back to assist the Doctor with removing the dampened shirt, keeping his eyes on his face the whole time, his focus utterly on him. Watching cautiously for any moment he might want or need to step back in to bolster the Doctor.
But then he found he didn't, because he was kissed and it was more. It was something different, and just as important.
His hand lifted and touched gentle to the Doctor's cheek, thumb brushing back and forth a little. He returned the kiss with the nature it was given, slow and soft and undoubtedly loving. A sentiment he reiterated quietly when their lips parted. Just a whisper, "I love you, Doctor."
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And he did love him. Which was frustrating in its own right, because the Doctor was never one to pick one person, much less settle down and consider what they did a relationship. But with Jack, here he was, slowly untucking his undershirt and trying to figure out how to put that sentiment into words.
Of course, as Occam's Razor often pointed out, the simplest answer was often the correct one.
"Just the way you are," he said. "Because that's who I want."
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Jack didn't do love, he didn't do this and so the fact they were? It was overwhelming. But overwhelming in all the right ways.
The next words too effected him, and just as much as the last, if not more. He closed his eyes tight for a moment, tried not to let the emotions come to the surface too much (crying now really wouldn't be the look he was aiming for). But he didn't cry, he smiled, and he leaned in and kissed him again. Kissed him and put into it how good hearing that made him feel, because there was no way he could put that into words.
And so, while he kissed him, he reached his arms to the Doctor's shirt, pulled it free of his trousers, undid the last of the buttons, and pushed it back over his shoulders. Because that's what he wanted to do. And he understood now, that was okay.
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He took a step towards the bed, trying to steer Jack to something comfortable to lay back on. Scientific minds, after all, were aware that sexual relations on a bed were 85% less likely to cause back injury.
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And here they were, in Jack's home, a place where if he were honest with himself he'd admit that he had wanted to return for over a hundred years. But he didn't care about it. He didn't care about anything than the man next to him and the air around them.
He needed no more than a light touch to usher him towards the bed, a small press that he understood, and so he stepped, keeping the same hold on the Doctor as he did, back and back until the back's of his calves touched the edge of the bed, he very nearly tripped and he let out a small laugh against the Doctor's lips.
"Less suave of me there," he said between kisses, "if you tell stories about me, leave that bit out."
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Strange. That was another difference between them. Jack was immortal, and the Doctor wasn't. Normally, he was used to the though that he'd never grow old with a companion, but now, with Jack, his companion would long outlive him.
He wanted to state what, exactly, he wanted. Maybe along the lines of Jack, who could list out how he wanted to stroke and lick and do a variety of things to the Doctor. Or maybe he just wanted to ask Jack to make love to him. Make love. Such a ridiculous euphemism, he decided. In Italian, "Making Love" was arguing, fighting, hashing out a couple's differences. In that way, the Doctor and Jack had been making love for the last three years of their lives.
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His hands touched gently to the Doctor's skin as he kissed him, brief kisses one after another, soft and small and deeper and fuller, a little of everything. Fingers rested on the Doctor's collarbone, curving a little over the nape of his neck.
He felt in many ways more relaxed here, more relaxed than any time before really. It was no first, no goodbye, it was just them, and entirely them. And they both knew things would never be perfect. But to realise that and realise that didn't have to stop the good? Well Jack thought that might be something they should have realised quite some time ago.
His hands shifted again then and moved down, down to the Doctor's trousers to work on the buttons. He didn't ask, he didn't suspect he needed to, and so he freed the button and pushed them down over his hips until they fell and pooled at the floor.
And then he whispered again, a quiet demand. "Tell me." He hoped the Doctor would deduce what he meant.
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His voice held an edge of desperation. "Please."
It wasn't quite the same, but it was all that could come out.
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"Always," he said, and he kissed him softly, toeing off his shoes before drawing the Doctor down to the bed, sitting and then leaning to lie. He kissed him again then, one long and lingering kiss before moving up onto his knees and opening his own trousers, slipping to his side to pull them off entirely, taking his underwear with them too.
He moved then, shifting down the bed to pull the Doctor's shoes off, one by one, and then tug off his trousers from the bottom of his legs. His task done, he moved back to the Doctor and smiled.
"Where was I?"
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He slid his hand up the side of Jack's thigh, gently tracing the pads of his fingertips right above the surface of his skin. Close enough that he could feel the energy transfer between them, and if he hadn't been focusing so heavily on Jack and allowed himself to look, he might've even seen it. But he was focused on Jack's face, on the way he looked at him, spoke to him.
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His fingers twisted gently into the Doctor's hair and his smile grew, just a little.
"Oh I did, didn't I?" he said finally. "Of course that wasn't a full list... I mean... there's this," he leaned down a little and pressed his lips gently against the Doctor's, withdrew them only slightly, and whispered, "and this," and shifted slightly, pressing them again but to his jaw, "and this," and again still, further down to his neck. All delicate and soft before shifting slightly, one of those hands that was supporting him moving down to find the Doctor's free hand and take it in his own.
And another whisper.
"I've missed you."
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"How could you miss me?" the Doctor teased with a smile. "I'm easy to find. I'm the guy with two hearts, remember?"
He reached up, tracing his fingers this time from Jack's jaw down to his sternum, the same gentle, not-quite-touching movements he gave to his thigh just a moment earlier. With his other hand, he gave Jack's hand a gentle squeeze.
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"No you're not," Jack replied with an amused little smile, still lacing gentle soft kisses against his skin. "I think I can attest to that. Maybe I'm just more persistent and looking for you."
He brushed his thumb gently against the skin beside the Doctor's thumb.
"But I found you. Two hearts and all."
He kissed him again then, a little more focussed, a little deeper, switching the level up slightly. In his mind he focused the way the Doctor was almost touching him. It made his breath rise just a little; his heart race.
"What do you feel?" he whispered as he lifted the Doctor's hand and pinned it lightly up beside his head.
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